Today was like the weather: reluctant to say goodbye to summer, caught with my pants down by Autumn, an old friend dropping by without calling before … years ago I wouldn’t think twice: Come in, take your coat off, have a cuppa, I’ll turn the fire low on the cooker, dinner in an hour, let’s first catch up a bit.
No; woken by the alarm clock, switched to action mode to hydrate and have a small bite before my morning walk, which I’ve skipped a lot in the past weeks. Swapped my ‘prolong the summer’ sandals for shoes and my ’damned if I’m going to feel the chill’ shorts for long trousers. Symbol of surrender, rather than being defeated.
Caught the morning sunshine before the chilly grey curtain of stratus – not thick enough to block the Sun, not thin enough to be a sport and let her bone-warming rays spoil us a bit – could bog my positive mood down. Breakfast after meditation, then several low priority tasks to postpone the major one, in which I’m confronted with the cumulative effects of a list of prior procrastination. Lousy: I’m not meeting one of the few deadlines I allow myself to set. Big dent in my self-appreciation … I’ll get over that by acknowledging my ego and not offering it a cuppa; the promises I made to others are not so easy to dismiss … don’t want to use my health issues as an excuse. So no update in my physical-mental situation today. For those capable of reading between the lines: thanks for listening …
Understanding Beats Fear 